HAIL MARY V95
(Over Hail Mary beat)
30 years my senior and I look back on life
“Shit… Life
Will it take me under”
Yeah… that’s right
Sit down and take it or stand up and fight
I hold you sacred but not only cause you were gone to young
It’s when I started to be tested and caught my religious tongue
It was…
Snake, rat, gun
And Hollins… it hasn’t been fun
Just “where we come from we don’t run”
So anyways I ran…
(Over seen it all beat)
Yeah it’s true
Getting hit from all angles that this alleged game do
But between me and you
I don’t know
Was just barley catching a one to grow on to grow…
One to grow on… you know?
So it’s down to friend or foe
Down to the exact second
1435 and my 3 shadow
But “Whoa”
It feel like I’m being beckoned
But nah I’m this bitches entertainment that my GMA reckoned
Humiliating me was her favorite show
While the Feds just watching too but not knowing how its really supposed to go
In prison? I was Yellow…
14 hours but you already know
I assume you lived your entire life like the one I’m describing and still trying to get to know
And I’m a be just fine
Little man was just being a dick
And every last one of them left just fell out of line
And It makes me so effing sick
(Over runaway beat)
Hollins I felt you lift
But it was when everyone got out the car
So for a second being crazy and bleeding black - believing vampire wasn’t a fetch too far
So I felt the guilt a bit, then with the mental it seemed a punishment for a crime i didn’t even commit
But thank god I was on a New York dime
Thank god for my talent to rhyme
I made it to London, as a sec I maxed out
And you shaking no to me mental I wanted your mom to know in spirit you still living and brought this about
Psychs and jails are this close SHOUT
Cause criminal mental held my key
But being crazy doesn’t define who I be
And it’s not all to do with what happened back then
So thank you for being my angel for every fact when
I wish I had a suv to drop this on your grave tonight
But the snow marks 3 days before you took your first flight
So I tatted 2/4
(Over freedom beat)
Death not insanity… and anything else it takes to be free
Free my peoples free us be
We free right there and I’m giving them the key
Hail Mary… and the reason I fight
But Mary please. Please don’t forget to pray for the victims at night
And me?
I dont wanna take it and be their trash can or closet anymore!
Me? I just want to be free
Free is what it takes and I can’t take it no more
We here - the next generation
Pac finally told me what he’d do with his last breath
And mines still right there whispering get back up with no hesitation
To teach and reach a nation
That’s why I breach their equation
Anyways - He’s finally out now…
My GMA passed the day she met him cause I think she knew I’d be safe now and she can let go… she was buried on her 100th birthday and finally back with my gpa. And thanks to you I know death is not the end and she watching over us too
I never would’ve never believed that if I didn’t see and believe in you
(Over angel beat)
Forgive me, I don’t know your daughters name but I pray for her almost every day
I guess in a way you had something to do with me remembering mines
And all those moments I thought were just lies that kept the lies in their lines
Psych at 13…
I was 14 when I had my daughter… a week before my 14th birthday
Judged for all that I didn’t even remember and didn’t know was all about me
Now they can’t stop me
I don’t want to change with the winds
I don’t wanna circle 4
I don’t want the loops or the bends
And certainly not the kids of some crack head whore
So I asked my father when I lost him… what’s the war for?
He didn’t know either… but he knew something
(Over say goodbye to yesterday)
I’m not trying to disrespect anybody but somebody think they can tell me and my body what it do
And when it all became too much I’ll be sure as usual to come and tell you
Bitch slept with every last bf I ever even had
And I’m not even the one mad
Get her off me I just want to be free
I ain’t with that sorcery…
I asked about your family and wanted to know you as much
She said it wasn’t a good idea so it always bothered me and such
Any ways so I let it be…
Knowing in my heart you’ve always been the eyes in back of me
30 years my senior looking back on the first time the world stood still
I just hope you proud of me now and always will
Insanity! Sometimes it gets so hard I wish it was me…
I don’t know why it was you and I can only think of that god needed you too
We all miss you
Sincerely me, C
and JUST LIKE shutter island I realized it was me 😂
I haven’t had a break in over 5 years… maybe the worst is over and I can get better too. All these meds, the fog, the tardive dyskinesia. When I get sick of life I think of you… My angel. Where would I be if I was never up against a ghost for real! Where would I be if I wasn’t guarding you! My first loss… but never again… lives now… I saved like 2. I lost track of how many saves you have too… but put me down for like 5 now… I’m only here cause of you (and pac)
Angels come from the most unexpected places and I left my tattoo artist when she told me angels don’t belong in the underground and I was like funny that’s all I see in down there
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