Never considered myself an Optimist
Not sure if the world's virtual like Oculus
I've always dwelled in negativity
Should see how crazy it's driven me
Lately i realize I'm the one causing this
need to reposition myself with positives
To purge my mind of doubt, think no diggity
But it's like withdrawals and i get so fidgety
Too easy to relapse... Why'd I write this song for
Those unwanted thoughts return like an encore
My mind is Alkatraz and escape seems impossible
Like having a tumor the doctor deems inoperable
See? I tried being happy but sound hopeless again
When i write change i never even notice the pen
And the pencil's eraser becomes a demon obstacle
Feels like I'm drowning without being nautical
Tic toc tic, hypnotic, i am getting sleepy
Perhaps hypnosis will let me focus deeply
On things that keep me feeling stimulated
They say to be happy first need to simulate it
It's acting, distracting you from pessimism
That hinders everyone's conquest or mission
Joy, euphoria, jubilation and ecstacy
Magical words that provide the remedy
Energy will deplete if you retreat to anger
Mentally feel defeat, call it a no brainer
Easy decision i need self construction
Seeing the vision of my Hell's destruction