A Disciple's Thread

[Candy]

nah its like a blessing loves yall

[A Disciple]

@Candy nah it should be everyone’s… if other people do it and just randomly write I think it’d be entertaining

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I don’t have a plan I’m so stressed like I’m not thinking before I write and on randoms… I’m not even back to full time work yet!

[Candy]

cool
whereever the link is copy and paste it so i can follow

[A Disciple]

@Candy I don’t know how to send a link from the IG app

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https://apps.apple.com/us/app/instagram/id389801252

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I found it

[Candy]

nah not my thing

[A Disciple]

@Candy what isn’t your thing?

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Guys… I remember tripping asking to use sacred scriptures but this is crazy… smh

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And I sent my set of war decision tree to somebody and yeah when I’m sick I do, do like random shit and realizing it’s spiritual too

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WHO blowing kisses, who tugging my eye like it’s on a string… where are the sparkles coming from or the grey and like… it’s scary when you can be in any world or one alone… felt like I was dropped that low that people slowly came back and found a way to balance and rebuild again. Just if you go to hell… make sure you have a partner…

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Yoooo insanity is crasaa’aaaaazy

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Art of war*

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https://music.apple.com/us/album/hea...9?i=1435445018

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That song was heaven and hell by meek mill and jadakiss

[A Disciple]

Praying… I need to support myself too! +

[A Disciple]

Working…

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@Candy who is that on your avatar?

[A Disciple]

Guys… by the way I’m from Nassau County - does that help?

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Yeah I saw the pic… hey if that’s who you wanna be who am I to judge or say… more power to you and it’s your business to disclose j don’t gossip like that…

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I don’t gossip like that*

[Candy]

Working…

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@Candy who is that on your avatar?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Mummy_%282017_film%29

https://hdsex.org/video/436159647

[A Disciple]

@Candy damn I didn’t realize you sent me to a porn site I click the link it’s all loud and I can’t figure out how to X it out… now THAT was funny!!!

[A Disciple]

44 years old and my first sex injury… my knees been fucked up for a week now and nah I wasn’t on them - it was missionary too LMFAO … guess I’m not as flexible as I used to be smh

@strange r wishes for you… I know how you feel. My dad drank himself to death last June… I feel you…

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He said my eyes are mood rings… and said they get dark when I’m mad LOL… nah but the grey is when I’m standing strong behind someone standing back up! My black ones? I haven’t figured out yet but when I’m usually at my calmest and most open to speak… brown… LOVEEEE lol… Green… sad and blue that’s my innocent angel ones… purple they used to go purple when I wore forest green but they don’t work like that anymore and like… earth? Earth is hot… blue, green, AND brown. Idk either cause like… you can do all that why in hate and not love or friendship?

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I’ll behave and shut up when I know what happened to my baby/babies!!!

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All my picture albums and baby books getting lost in storage. Nice play ex but god already made sure I had all the pictures I needed - asshole. I really should hate you that much huh?

[A Disciple]

Guys… seriously… who the fuck tapping me?!?? There’s only like 1 person I even get along with that way…

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They’ve been abusive as hell!!!!

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I’m on IG trying to promote the site… but I have ZERO clue how to get followers!

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AD_rapbattles

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Tap…

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I just wanna know who is on my body, why, and how did they get there?

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My body keep changing and lately for the worse

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That’s not fair to me

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Do you wanna see what my ass look like and all the gross dimples too?!?? I’m on a diet again like SORRY

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You don’t sit there and just design a bitch how you want especually when she don’t even want you back

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It take a lot more than that to impress me… I’m no one’s bitch for real

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Marriage isn’t even an option for me… I have a MANDATORY 8 year engagement… it took 6 years and more to see my exes true colors and that scared the hell out of me even more

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When I promise God I mean it

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You not gonna have me on the “for worse” path

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I NEVER loved anybody but my family THAT much

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I’m not living for worse with ANYBODY lol

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Cause they say you get 2 loves in life and I believe that is the for better or the for worse

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I don’t believe so much in the promise of the next world I mean I do but I just want the best life now… I’ve been thru a lot - no more pain, no more betrayal, hurt or sadness… no more viscous rumors that not even true like… I need my for better for real

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In a real debating zone… my mom left the church and I support her she had EVERY right to and I left the church when they wouldn’t pray for her when she had cancer cause we weren’t a paying member. It makes me feel better that Jesus said you don’t need the wood or the beams to honor me but I really believe in the sanction and ceremonies… but for my mom i don’t know what to do

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I’ve already made every sacrament but marriage so like I’ve been already made promises. And when I read the Quran because I was so mad at my God… I believe Allah is a true god no doubt… just not mine. I believe in our version of Jesus and Mary too much… so I believe they call me a mushrik

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I went to church in a basement where candles burned and black smoke was thrown and like… idk

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It’s prolly why I’m more comfortable in the dark and I don’t want to lose that support either

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I guess I have a while to decide…

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The upstairs church was formal… we only went on holidays

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Are you understanding my plight a little better?

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My mom said the church did some fucked up unforgiveable genocide type mass grave shit… so I’m thinking real hard too. And they excommunicated her for divorce but I even believe in divorce if it’s life or death - my dad used to beat her

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Nothing in your vowes says you have to stay even if it means death

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When I get married I’m not taking traditional vowes… I’m making my own

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To be honest… the 10 commandments would be good vowe in my opinion for marriage too

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I noticed my commandments are slightly different too then what you google

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Ok enough church talk but it’s been on my mind stressing me

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Ain’t no low level witches gonna sit here and continue to kick my ass though either

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Anyone close to me which is rare knew I was highly religious (I don’t usually advertise or talk about it though)

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Honestly… if I had to? Self defense isn’t murder and if the situation was really that severe like my assault in myrtle beach in 2010 I feel self defense isn’t murder. It says thall shall not murder it says nothing about self defense

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I know for a fact they were not expecting me to survive that… I got away

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I mean that’s for God to decide but that’s how I would stand to answer… I lived my entire life to stand to answer

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It’s a fucked up feeling when you feel like your God kinda have to answer to you for all he allowed and should’ve protected me from

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My god made promises to me too… like freewill… not being some blow up puppet doll that opens my own doors for them when it’s everything I’m against

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The gates gonna be real hard for me for real now… I feel betrayed

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Now you think I’m a sit here for the people who did it to begin with? HELL NO… not even for pire would I do that

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My God wouldn’t even ask me to…

[A Disciple]

All right I’m gonna bust it down like this… “your shadow doesn’t leave you in the dark” … it’s dark they’re their just you can’t see them

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I can hallucinate at any given moment… like being dead alone only that’s why you crazy cause you up talking to angels getting thru this… my cheek hurt… whether that be real or vioux … RESOLVE IT

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And as far as curses? Or hits? … why don’t you save them for when you need them?

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You gonna be all out of ammo… and like

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I passed out at 15% … the only way we not cool is if you’re THAT rich! No cushions like “sharing the pain” … I personally want more cushions and peace and comfort rather then taking them all for the team

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Panic drills… cell phone and air outs… talking to somebody you know?

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I wish I could show them or give them the feelings - my ptsd? When I thought it mean I’m actually kinda echelon … Fred’s brother passed out when they pulled that out and I took 3 bits like that SO… more people equal less pain and discomfort and yeah I did feel like Jesus said that when I got my tree - share the pain

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There really are some people who understand me… what did I get in trouble for?

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What are they even doing here on that level though? Like being bullied and fake stuff that you can’t tell the difference between real and fake… and nah something probably isn’t right if I’m texting like this.

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Publicly though? Nah I rather be and stay myself first! Yeah… those pics.. we WERE happy and it went all down hill… and C I’m replacing you now.. that’s prolly what happened - no one had my back anymore

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I was talking about me and Ced… and to make it clear me and ikon never even messed and if you really wanna see my bitch side it’s cause I would LMAO if you thought you were hopping on my shit and had to fuck him!

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Never even a kiss…

[A Disciple]

To be honest… Idgaf what you are they have no rite to be on me. And you’d think your MAN or someone you are sleeping with would be stronger then people you not even friends with anymore! Like spiritual shit and I’m tired…

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Get him off of and out of me please… that’s what it feels like

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I’m going to sleep…

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How can someone just haunt you like that though?