If ya dont wanna read it, than its cool, its jst a story that happend to me recently and is still what im going through.. it may be long but an interesting story i guess of my life within the past 2-3 weeks.. *sighs* and once again, dont care about flow, vocab, emotion, imagery or what ever in this story.. because i could do that shyt.. this is just something i really feel right now and needed to write...
My Story Of Jealousy And Regret
Its funny how he said she's ugly and he will like her never..
When he was the one to get her heart, and soon will be together..
I just hate how that happens, because i showed my feelings first..
I wish i could have held back if i knew i was soon gonna be hurt..
(How It Began)
I remember when i first saw her amazing, beautiful,angel like face,
She first smiled at me and funny how she easilly put me at grace
At that time, i really wasnt sure of this feeling that i had inside
Because, I couldnt stop thinking of her, no matter how hard i tried
Later, Daneil, sunny, her and I went to chill at downtown in that day
Man, it was just amazing how she makes me laugh no matter what she'd say
I'd catch my self staring at her, thinking, "What the hell am I doing?"
And didnt realize, that my other relationship soon id be screwing
She asked for my number thinking, "Wow can something really happen?"
But held back when next to her, while the time was quickly passin
We chilled the whole day, just walking from one store to another
Always seeing her amazing smile, making me want to tightly hug her
But i cant, because i got a girl, and now i jst dont know what to do.
I love my girl to death, but this other girl i also dont want to loose
So when the day ended, I wished the day could have lasted for ever
Because i love feeling her presence, and leaving wont at all feel better
When me n my 2 friends daniel and sunny finally arived back at the house
I was like, damn man, that girl Janets amazing, shes all i think about
Than daniel said, "What the hell? She's okay, she dont even look all good"
But didnt realize, he too would soon be liking her, as there i lonely stood..
Her and I would have conversations on the fone, hoping it wont finish..
But at the same time, her and daniel talk on the fone 30 more minutes..
Later he'd be talking about her all the time while we hung out..
And i'd find her do the same, thinking what all this is about..
I so much wanted to doubt, that there was a chance that they'd be together..
But at the same time, I tried to make them acouple, guess was for the better..
I Guess the reason i did that, was because i have a girl of my own..
And even though i have one, i still feel like im completely alone..
I never get to see my own girl, but this girl janet i see even alot more..
You have no idea, how much i want to tell her, without her my hearts sore..
But thats not the bad part, for what I just found out at this very moment..
Which is, she said she likes daniel, and isn't at all afraid to show it..
When i read that in her blog, my heart shattered to a million pieces..
Which only one can put back together, and i really wish she did..
Now i stand here hurt, and with anger towrads daniel my close friend..
Because he's about to get the girl that i've dreamed of being her man..
So now my hearts be stabbed a thousand times, never gonna be healing..
But i guess its my fault he had her, because i never did show my true feelings..
So im here writting how i feel at this moment, and telling you a story of mine..
Of what happend within two in a half weeks, and still happening at this time..
But there is one that at this moment, im hoping ya will really learn..
To never hide your feelings, or you'll be like me.......
A heart that will forever burn..
This is a true story that happend within this month.. so i want ya to never hide your true feelings or you'll regret it like me.. I'm still with my girl, but im still thinking of Janet
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