To Angel (survivors remorse)
Angel
I mean it’s just words to most
Trying to explain the expression and obsession when you lived most your life up against a ghost
A toast to the day - the same day you check the site and it’s you that they roast
But I wasn’t in it to boast, not in it to rep either coast, or to troll in my posts
Just like… one question though…
how much DID they gross?
I mean why they do it, what game do the play, and who is/was the host?
And what CAN I say?
Cause I don’t see a motive or how it all became my sense of shame
The all just lame… we are not the same
And nah I don’t need anyone to remember my name
Just to remember me the same
I don’t know…
This song really hit home and always put me in a zone…
Like sometimes I wonder if that comment was his about preferring to die all alone
All I could scream was keep your eyes open and he couldn’t
They wishing what you will when I know that you wouldn’t
Time goes by fast or by real slow but it’s something that no matter how much money you got…
You can never trade or own
That’s one to grow on too but wait homie… we supposed to be already grown
And I don’t know about you… but
I just still respect myself and I know I can’t turn to stone
Thinking hard on how many sides and theories I’ve shown
Even though I never really known what was up
While everyone else knew what I was facing
Or that one or this one making fun of me and my pacing
You know?
I always sang this part as:
“So tired of the street life and everywhere you turn there is vultures and feens at your back, stone keeps on twisting and you lie to make up for all that you lack… it don’t make no difference escaping one more time it’s easier to believe… it wasn’t the glory it was the sadness that brought me to my knees”
DEAD UP
I’m just begging you release me from the burden… Chris please
~ that’s what survivors remorse feel like