Going Thru It

Going Thru It

I usually wake up to his good morning text
Not today… and It’s my fault cause I realized I’m next
Another girls has his attention and it isn’t me
And what scares me more than anything for us is infidelity…
he don’t just have 1 he got like 2 or 3
Given his circumstances I don’t blame him

(“I only rent a room in the house”)

I haven’t cried over a man in 11 years and 10 months
Heart ache was the last thing I considered cause I already been thru that once
I cried… twice… and fighting back 3
Like come on why is this happening to me
The psychic said he’s my soulmate… you know another choke
Prior to that I never found a man that I loved more than coke
And I used to say that as a joke
But I quit… (and gained 9lbs)
And this pit in my stomach won’t let up one bit
Man I’m going thru it…
I love how he just giggles out of no where like an after thought
And I love all the cute little presents that for me he bought
When making love I see his eyes fade to all black
That’s soul to soul talking baby I know a little bit about that
The first time we laid I almost died in his arms
He’s the only one that can even hold me but these aren’t even half of his charms
He a playa for real and I guess I just thought i never expected to feel
He been on chat like every half hour today
He used to talk to me like that but I guess I lost him that way
Yeah I even let him hit it raw and I hope pay back wasn’t all that this was for
And all I can think of is your finally free
Cause I left you while you were in there … so now you getting back at me?
I should’ve expected that but it was you
Boomerang baby… what go around come around - what can I do