I Don’t Wanna Know
(Read over lyrics)
He let me do my thing while time was just passing
Is it why it never worked with no one else… or why that new love never lasted?
Or why no one took me for real cause that’s the last thing
When you know what’s up and how you feel… and all that other shit the money bring
THOT is an honor but it leave your heart hard
I love like 3 men now cause they took care of me when I didn’t realize I was scarred
Now we here all these years later while strangers debate her
I never knew patience until I made it thru 25 years, in fate, and how hate were
I’m in patient but know better than to jump
Now he think who Im a play to look like a chump - his fears
Nah that was me…
All I know is signs with a fucked up memory
That upgrade meme, I got you sucker as I look you in the eye (filing my nails with an emery)
So who paid who to hold me down
And I hope you know that made me look stupid to every other bitch looking around
The 5 years I thought back had me face down to the ground – but even when late she right on time
But why the only info I get comes from his, his, hers, or my rhyme
“No Love Lost… None Found” (the gavel slams)PAUSE
“If he taught you better than me, then why did you fall asleep and do all those things you used to do me”
“If you’re better off that way, that’s all you had to say – go on and do your thing”
PLAY AND LISTEN TO RAP PART
(The write back to the sponsor)
Thank you… for the SUV, the money, a hard life that was more funny
Who knows me best now cause I lost myself
And you already know pain isn’t that good for my health
I really did let go crying at 120 miles per hour and still don’t know why
I think back to then to now and I don’t think I coulda been wilder as inside my soul die
And yeah… I might just stand here with you
Because it became a lifestyle and the only one I knew
And how it could’ve been different? I think he did the stand up thing
I don’t think he meant to be selfish but I don’t think its me he sees when he think about a ring
Every shadow dream that never came thru says nothing just where we would’ve been if he wasn’t caught in that life too
I mean they wanna punish me too?
How many times and ways are we going to be served
I trust the one who talks to my soul when I said nothing and heard
How a man always had me choosing? I wanted a family
But other ones called and it ended up insanity and that wasn’t fair to me
Now there is nothing else it can be
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